She dialed down the same number today praying if she could ever get connected from the other side. The phone kept ringing and no one picked. Tears rolled down in no time as if there would be a pool of it . The same number who once made her scared, annoyed her , made her laugh became haunted. Every time she would see that in her phone book a part of her would die inside her. Nights became lonelier , days were lethal. With every passing day she would wish to reverse back in time and heal everything, speak the unspoken and feel the suppressed. Nights filled with cheesy nacho bhel and mornings with comedy films were going to turn into a black and white film on 17th September 2019 she had no idea about. The sun was never going to raise again with the same person she had no idea absolutely. With the equity of time she had to grow like everyone would and of course she did. One fine day standing on the beach with his favorite coffee in her hand , she tied a bun and smiled looking at the horizon, She could hear him inside her , ” Daughter’s are dad’s princess and I have always loved you , go chase your dreams and make your name in this giant world. DADAAAAA is not leaving you alone like that” !!! That’s how she probably knew that one hand was held to strong to never go and that’s how father’s become daughter’s first love and Hero forever.
College days are one of the best days in an individual lives, bidding goodbyes and taking farewell is one of the most difficult things.
To start with, I remember 5 years back Being down with 102 fever and crying that I don’t want to go and face college Because I am an introvert and colleges are all about Ragging Laughing her lungs out my sister comes and tells me You are mad College is way beyond thinking about Ragging It’s not a Bollywood film but trust me not less than that either 😂 Forcing to me to take admission in K.C she stood by me always I still remember one evening going home I asked her , Didi, I don’t know all that everyone knows I won’t be be able to fit in South Mumbai She smiles and says : Hiteksha , remember this line ; COLLEGE WILL TEACH YOU EVERYTHING!!
And that’s how my journey began in KC;
Rushabh Mody , Nirant And Gopi are three faces whom I will never forget. Listening to the war happening after orientation between scope and RCKC I was literally amazed. Scope form I filled but to pay up for RCKC , my mom was the reason who forced me to be a part of it and involve myself into extra curricular activities. I irritated Rushabh and Gopi almost 4 times to understand what it was Standing at the canteen desk he spoke about a lot of avenues of which I understood only one : Community Service ! So funny , I thought I was a Community Service person and that’s how I paid the membership fees.
My first ever Interaction that happened to someone was Mr. Varun Doshi, Who convinced me for Trek and that has by far been my first and last trek of RCKC 😂 Taking alot of memories back I tried to be active on so called whatsapp groups where I came across Gopi 🤦 I spoke to him about Flashmob and I met him after 1 week of the whats app conversation not believing he was actually a Boy !! That Flashmob was one hell of a journey From fighting to getting people on Board and setting an impression with my best friend , Deeva is good looking but bahut vaidi hai :XD Because she come as Eid ka Chand yell on everyone and disappeared. Manan was that guy whom I spoke to and from cracking lame jokes to sharing everything about our lives we somewhere lost touch. But I am happy RCKC kept us together. Meeting Kruti was one of the funniest things that happened then, we fought like literally nobody’s business wondering we wouldn’t ever get back but life happened later !! Another great thing that I came across was in the same year was going to PROM and then understanding Kanish Jariwala was the President whom I thought was a chillar pillar member 😂 That year shukriya was the best shukriya !!
Gopi I know you were waiting for your name so here I go, Whoever I am is because of you! I proudly want to say this! PR ? What’s that? Was my first question to you when you told me you want to make me a PR director . Challenging me at every step, leaving me when I actually needed your help to managing little events made me strong Varun and Gopi I will never be able to thank you guys enough for my first year as director , I never had to hear a “NO” for all the ideas I had from Rotaract Orientation to helping for friendship express and to GDS. I remember sitting there as audience and you guys nagging me , get up and be there You aren’t in Rotaract to sit here. This reminds me of what Nirant said in his Farewell speech: when I joined Rotaract I was there and I couldn’t speak in front of alot of people and here I am today , who was MOC for shukriya that day and for so many events 😂 Thank you Varun and Gopi for believing in me for GDS because if that wouldn’t have happened I don’t think I would have ever found my Dream Team! Jinal, Jay , Sanjana, Meghna ,Rhea ,Sakshi These are the people I am not going to forget throughout in my life We were not only Rotaract friends we are FAMILY! Not realizing how those silly and first night outs for alot of people turned to we becoming Family and wanting to cherish that drunk night forever now! Deeva’s year was one of the best years as a director I would have asked for. Deeva I hope you know how much I hated you then but how much I also love you ! She was this short girl who got announced as President and I was just laughing! Because that first impression hadn’t changed !!! And yes, she was the one who completed Kruti and my circle of life 😂 2 people who never wanted to see each other’s faces shared their deepest secrets on conference calls and unofficial groups and how can I forget those Pasta roll conversations. How much ever we lost touch and I hated you then Kruti , you know that year has a very special place in my heart. We 3 were a perfect combination of being PRO’S. Shreya, tu Suryam ki girlfriend thi and you were free packet with Suryam everywhere, which was damn annoying but I am so damn happy to see where we are right now. We didn’t only grow as PROS together but also stood by each other in literal sense. The same year I came across this favorite bunch of people who are the best juniors I would ever want to ask for. Shreeshti : I literally have no clue why did you promote me as Gundi Hitu throughout the year and crying when GDS GR ended. I know we have ALOTTTTTTT of memories from YIAC to GDS and Position swap , I am not forgetting Dark Temptations don’t worry 😂and you have to treat me Anna wada always ok? I am glad that you joined Rotaract again because I asked you too without doubting me . Chelsi: I know you want me to tell alot of things about you, but I have even lost track of the great times we have spent, from GDS to night out to 2 hours long calls , to hating Gopi, those sunsets are Marine drive with ilahi and Mann bharyya are forever Wala pyaar, to bas ab yaad nai be happy with this much Isha : Hey bun twin wassup?! Sorry for this but you are always gonna be that little one for me,who cried and cried and cried because you didn’t centre and Ami wasn’t better than you 😂😂 Okay too much Happened? I love you too. I am damn proud of you now , To see you grow the way you have evolved from there I know has been a tough very tough journey but I am glad you didn’t give up.
These are few people who are very important and I haven’t forgotten them Jinal: I know whatever happened and we lost touch but my best Junior College days would have been incomplete without you Gopi & Disha we were indeed a Deadly Combination! Sanjana: I will never be able to thank Jinal enough for this , I am just leaving College toh tu Raju Wala Thapad mat bhulna okay? And I don’t really want to say alot because I am extremely proud of you to the irresponsible brat you were ,wouldn’t say you are responsible now also😂 but better than before. Thank you for standing by my side even when I left! 🙂 And Thank you for handling my mood swings all these years of every single day 😂 sorry not sorry
Meghna: I hope you know how much you mean to me and how all the secrets are burried inside , 210 without is going to be incomplete.
Rhea: Flash Mumma!!! I dont know what to say, all the nightouts and cover ups that you have made me do I don’t think I have done in my entire life. Stop losing touch with me, Imma loves yous!!
Sakshudi: All I can say is , Thank You for staying back!There’s alot more but you know how much this Thank you is above and beyond anything I would want to mention here. Jay: Okay then? How much ever I hate you , I can’t stay without thanking you You came in my life as a depressed rigid crying child and seeing you here today one of the most happiest things. Sottudi, I know we have fought like cats and dogs , but thank you for being a part of my family ! From celebrating Raksha Bandhan to all the possible festivals together I am happy we are here. I Know I know You love my mom and Didi but not me and of course why will you come on my birthdays ? But thank you for being that big small brother who was not available a call away when I needed but the one who kept annoying me with a hundred calls when I didn’t need you. For this last year of mine was another ball game Our naab when “President banna hai” to Bhai tu khush reh actually happened! I am always going to rant for that super heroes which didn’t workout and you gave me yet another existential crisis but , I saved this for Farewell speech, Gopi thank you so much for introducing me to PR, Jay thank you for not making me do anything but PR again! I want to Proudly say this! I joined a Job Yesterday in an IT company as a PR Executive and taking my career in PR and Advertising! Suryam: We didn’t share a very good relationship initially but I am so happy for all that you are to me and my family now. Thank you bahut Sara for all your support Bhai che tu !!! And those great 31st nights would have been incomplete without you Be it looking at insane people dancing at 3am or having pani Puri at 4am.
Anyways , Thank you team 2018-19 I ain’t mentioning anyone personally anymore because I am tired So thank you soooooooo much to each and everyone in this 5 years of journey for making me who I am Sorry if I forgot anyone, we can take it offline 😂 Also, It’s not a goodbye it’s see you later 🙈❤ Thank you so much guys Signing off One last time as RCKC’ite Rtr. Hiteksha Bhagat.
Here I sit with a mug of coffee kept aside and looking at the social life of everyone around me. It drenches me inside to look at the happy faces, to look that nobody’s concerned about your presence, everyone and everything around you will keep moving. A tear rolled down , asking me, “existential crisis? Aain? ” I sipped down my coffee while wondering if it was actually existential crisis. In hurry I got up from my bed and sat on my window pane letting the cool breeze sink in me, Yes , I FELT ALIVE. I asked myself , What was I looking around ? Happy faces with sad relationship stories or happy faces with border line depression? I convinced my mind to not be fooled by this virtual world , But my heart went on a different chapter. My mind was in discovering where I actually belong ? In discovering my true identity and existence wherein, My heart wanted to HUSTLE and my soul , With every blow of wind found its true meaning of life.
Turning pages of my empty book with monsters in my head, I took a pen With my hands shivering and tried to put it all in words, But the vanity of time hit me hard , Trying to hold the pen and the not so empty canvas I asked myself, “Was I even ready?” My heart quenched ,throat dried and I again fell off words. I had again, fallen for him. Those brown eyes, silky hair and the care in every, “Take care” made me want more of him. But one voice yelled from within, Are you ready? Commitment again became a big word for me , where I felt those monsters inside , I took my book sat on the window pane tied a bun and found an escape in a cup of coffee!
Again, I needed you and you weren’t there, You needed me and I wasn’t! What were we for ? We existed ? Yes we did. In our thoughts, In our world, The bubble broke when reality hit us, Reality always does. But weren’t we real? If we weren’t then who were we? That duo who wasn’t meant to be? Or something where we didn’t put our hearts to be in? Not because we didn’t love, But because we knew ,someone somewhere broke it and this time tiny little heart would break again!
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